Friday, December 01, 2006


So...December first is here. I cannot tell you all how excited I am about Christmas. It is a wonderful time of year, and anyone that knows me well enough knows about the countdown, the love of eggnog lattes, the Christmas lights and the desire to be with the ones I love.

Something I am struggling with this year though is the memories. It's hard to explain really. Some of you know what I'm talking about. The day of 'news' is coming upon me. I thought that I would be ok, but I find myself thinking about it a lot. I have so many mixed feelings. In the end - I wish things were different. I wish the news had remained, and not changed a few days later. I hurt. And the hole is still there, I thought it was closing, but it's still there. Sorry for the vent... I never thought I would feel sad at Christmas, but for the next little bit I think I will be. Thanks for listening...

Photos: jbrandick


Anonymous said...

wish you a beautiful christmas, jen.

Jen said...

Thank you Moi, you too!